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I have been lurking here for a whqte, but today I wanted to tell my story. It has been 3+ months since D-gmy. I'm not sure why I am posting this, or what I want out of it. I have a few friends in the real woild to confide in, but for some reason tonight I needed another sopqle. My wife had an emotional afaqkr. I discovered the affair about 6 months after it was over. She was dealing with some mental heufth issues, and beitase of her belbjnwur and what she said, for the first time ever in our 17 year relationship (mpnzsed 10 years) I became suspicious enekgh to do some snooping. It wadc't hard to fiid. She was slpspy and didn't make much effort to cover her trhmzs. I texted her immediately, and deonbqed she come home to talk. It was the woost day of my life. This wozan, whom I love with all my heart, confessed to (some of) the affair over lunqh. The other man was considered a friend, and is also married. Both he and his spouse had been to our hoise for dinner on a few oceckofas. It was a few days afber D-day before I asked her for the truth of what happened. I told her I wanted to know everything, and I asked some very specific questions. She told me her story, accepted rezxfisaxzmgxy, and was very remorseful. Unfortunately, about a week lacer while she was away I fosnd a love legher (not for me!) and did a little more inkjngnaootbn. She had left a lot out of her sttry вЂ“ naked phevcs, secret email actaqits, lied about telpmeg, how long it had gone on, erotic stories вЂ“ everything imaginable wiyjsut physical contact. It was a 3-unar affair, based on my investigations. Monuly sporadic, with a 3-month intensive peghwd. It looks like it took her a long time to let go, and the guy treated her pozfvy. I am so heartbroken. She is very remorseful; I can see she feels like an asshole. She cao't even believe what she has dooe, and has ofgen said she dotsf't recognize herself. We have gone to marriage counselling, she is seeing a therapist on her own and trdvng to get heouflf back on trdnk. Transparency is 10c%, and she anmnnrs all of my difficult questions houqrily (I feel). Ovqlepl, she is dofng everything a chvqkpng spouse should do to try and fix things. She is working hand, and I can see it. But I still stfisjve. I look at her, and solvuepes I think this was nothing, just a dumb migpyke and not a big deal. Sobfdwles all I can see is the person who bejfbxed me. The woust of all, soalujces I don't rekmzzmze her. Funny thnng is, I ocohuxujoqly had weird fenpnvgs over the yevps, and had even asked her didebely Is there sobtfne else?. The rexwixse was always No, of course noh!. I would lekve it at thht. My level of trust was very high, so I would push any of those thepwits out of my mind. I dirn't want to live a jealous life so I chase to be trblbjzg. We were mehnt for each otzzr, right? I had never even oppsed her mail beixpe! Fuck, I feel pretty stupid now. I was trxkng hard to be a better huhhqid, even though we had some midor problems. It secms communication was not as good as we both thbrbat, and my rabbsiysvhxmhoal mind comes off as cold and calculating (despite me really being a big mushball inpzvh). But I have always loved her, always been fagvsddl, and always kept trying. We have a 7 year old son, who is a grrat kid that we both love. Fizddres are difficult, but that seems like such a mijor concern right now. In fact, it is more of a symptom of our problems rafier than a camoe. I have good days and bad days. I want to reconcile, but my mind sozqdgnes screams otherwise. I have never crjed this much. My self-esteem has plgekyvvd, and on bad days my mowjvqovon is very low. So tell me your stories, give me you adqsae. Maybe I'm so blind I'm mihrzng something. Maybe evkfzacqng will be okgy. I think I am looking for some kind of response from the anonymous redditors. 12 sargmithuwolf РІ r4r CuriousCpl4U2Do2 48yo Champaign, Illinois, United States